leidschmerz (leidschmerz) wrote in divine_sanctum,

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Ive Just About Had It.

No. Im fucking serious. I've just about had it with staying here w/ Jeff's parents. Especially when they treat me like I'm an outsider, and even though Jeff won't admit it, they treat HIM like shit also. They're so loving and affectionate with their daughters, but to us? All they do is bitch and moan how we need to improve ourselves.

Oh yeah, and then they cast rules on us that don't apply to the girls. Like, they get pissed off if I spend more than an hour a day on the net, but Jeff's sister Emily will spend six playing Tiberian Sun. Or they leave all their SHIT scattered on the table in the morning, but if I dont clean up after myself INDEFINITELY, whereas there is NO mess left (not even a crumb,) we get a mean note about how we're guests and we need to act like them.

You know what's fucking bogus? We're not guests, we're family. And we aren't even really GUESTS, they treat us like fucking burdens. I can't wait to just finally get our act together, so I can go back to my own apartment and not have to deal with this. Honestly, I hang my coat on the back of a chair in the kitchen, and find it outside on the front lawn in the morning. What the fuck is that all about? Assholes.
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Okay, that's fucking ridiculous. =\
Isn't it? I'm sick of being treated like an outsider. Everything will change once I start my own personal stuff. Like have friends, a job, school. I just want my own life again, whereas having to depend on people that don't like me and make it seem like it's such a chore to do things. I'm tired of trying to gain their acceptance, I just want to be myself.
I know how ya feel. =\ It's a bitch, I know. But you're gonna be outta there soon. =D Summer isn't that far away.
Terra. The fact of the matter is this. If that is how they make you feel. Do not give them the satisfaction of knowing you are distressed over it. They make you feel like an outsider? Then make them feel like an outsider to you. Do they know you? Not as well as you know yourself. As well, to be honest there comes a time when you have to realize. You're not there for them. You're there for Jeff. They are his family, so you have to tolerate them. Why make it a goal to gain their acceptance, when the only acceptance you need is from Jeff. I don't know the -whole- situation, so if this is completely wrong, then just tell me. But this is what I've gathered from it so far.
Thanks, guys. That really made me feel better. Im not so upset anymore. More or less its that time of the month and its healthy to vent, but I made the same realization that you said, JJ, just a couple of hours ago. You're absolutely right. =)